Of his mentor, missionary to China Margaret Barber, Watchmen Nee wrote, “She cared for nothing but life… [and to pay] more attention to life than work.”
I long for this mindset, but too often the opposite is true. Consider what occurred only a few days ago.
On my to-do list was to get the name of diabetic test strips which would be covered under our new health insurance plan. My pharmacy told me to call my provider. My provider told me to call my insurance company. My insurance company referred me to a third party which handled pharmacy issues.
After several tries, I finally found myself talking to a person. His name was John. His voice was slow and shaky. I had the phone on speaker and my wife and I could both tell he was elderly, probably in his 70s.
John didn’t seem to know the answer to my question and suggested I call my pharmacy. When I told him I'd tried that, he told me to call my insurance company. I told him my insurance company had referred me to him. I tried to keep my voice from sounding as frustrated as I was feeling. This "to-do" was taking much longer than I'd hoped.
That's the sad thing. At that moment I wasn't thinking about John at all, other than the fact that he was blocking me from marking this nagging duty off my list.
When John realized I wasn't going to go away, he put me on hold.
"I bet people laugh at the way he talks all the time," my wife offered, feeling compassion for him. This unsolicited comment began to shift my heart and my thoughts moved slightly towards John. I emphasize slightly, because my goal was still resolution, not encouragement. I hate to admit this, but it's true.
When John got back on the line, he had an answer for me. In fact, he seemed empowered now that he had information.
During our exchange, my wife caught my eye and mouthed, "Pray for him."
Not yet being fully focused on John, this hadn't even occurred to me and I was a bit reluctant. However, when John was done giving me my answer, I asked, “Is there anything I can pray for you about?”
"Yes," John said without hesitation.
“What can I pray for you about,” I repeated.
“My salvation,” John cried out.
Wow. I wasn't expecting that at all, but it thrilled me that he would be so honest.
I went on to pray that John would recognize God's loves for him, that he would accept Christ's willingness to die on a cross for his sins. I prayed that John would believe by faith the fact that Jesus' death was out of love for him and that by receiving Christ's finished work, it would secured the salvation of his soul.
John listened and when I was done we ended our call with the normal protocols. But before we hang up, we could hear John gasp loudly and sob softly. What if he really did surrender his life to Christ? We pray that he did.
When we value life over work, this changes everything.
I recently heard of a man who was an elder serving on a particular church committee for 45 years. He said the experience was totally empty, but that he considered it his duty to God. He said his life was a series of dutiful activities hoping to please God.
But two years ago he finally understood grace. Though he'd heard the word for years, the amazing truth of God's unmerited favor passed from head knowledge to his heart.
Since then, his life has been totally different. Now, when he wakes up in the morning, he doesn't think about all he has to do. Two simple thoughts have replaced his thoughts of work:
- Oh, how he loves me
- I wonder who he will bring into my life today to love through me?
Prayer: Most gracious, heavenly Father. I’m sorry I so easily get caught up in the swirl of duties and work that life becomes secondary. You are life. I see you all around me in your creation and in the people you bring my way. Please help me trust you that the work you want to accomplish will get done. I’m asking you to change the paradigm of my day to care less about accomplishments and more about people, to pay more attention to life than work.
Thank you for loving me so much. Please work this unsearchable truth more and more into the fabric of my heart.
Who do you want to bring into my life today so that you can love them through me?
1 Peter 3:15 (NASB) but sanctify Christ as Lord in your hearts, always being ready to make a defense to everyone who asks you to give an account for the hope that is in you, yet with gentleness and reverence;
 Watchman Nee, Witness Lee