Sorrowful yet always Rejoicing
sorrowful yet always rejoicing, II Corinthians 6:10
I was teaching a two week interim class at the Governor’s School of Science and Mathematics. My mom had been complaining of abdominal pain for a few weeks. We hoped it was her diverticulitis, but when antibiotics didn’t clear it up, the doctors talked about something more serious. They scheduled exploratory surgery the day I was finishing up my class.
I hadn’t heard anything when the class ended, so I headed home along a dark rural road. Suddenly my car lost all power. Navigating to the narrow shoulder of the road, a massive eighteen wheeler whizzed by shaking the car.
My cell phone rang. It was my wife. Mom had a form of stage 3 ovarian cancer. Hanging up the phone, I felt numb. But then a strange peace welled up deep in my soul. A sense of God’s presence filled me with unusual joy. Not the kind of joy which would cause glad shouting. But it was a firm realization that because God was with me everything was okay.
I learned from this experience that being okay is not a matter of circumstances always working out. Being okay is about us being with God and Him being with us.
A few months later my mother would die. However, the Lord used Isaiah 43 to speak to her heart about being redeemed. She trusted in the Lord Jesus for her salvation before she died.
This brings me unspeakable joy.
No matter what you are going through right this moment, joy is available.
Don’t look for it in your circumstances. This world has troubles.
Joy is found in the presence of God. Behold Him and He will BE your strength and joy.
Lord, thank you that in spite of very difficult circumstance you made me aware of your joyful presence. It is so easy for me to try and find joy in my circumstances and feelings. Thank you that you give me a deep rock solid joy which is unaffected by ANYTHING I face. Please keep me aware that You are my Delight, my Joy, my life. AMEN.